Behind the Title

Hey there! My name's Hannah. I'm a junior in high school, a singer, but most importantly a grace-addict. Where would I be without my Savior? This is a new blog I decided to start, dedicated to the sovereign work that my Father is doing in my walk with Him. I had a blog that I kept throughout my sophomore year, but I really fell out of writing. So here I am, and by the grace of God I pray that this blog will be kept up, just for the sake of glorifying Him.
SO let me explain to you why this blog is called what it is...

If you're reading this and you know me personally, you'll roll your eyes when you read what I'm about to write-because you know already...
My favorite place on earth is Sky Ranch. Got your eye roll out? Good. So I'll keep going(:
I was incredibly blessed to spend a whopping three weeks at sky ranch-one week being at the camp in East Texas, and two of those weeks with the oldest leadership group sigma in the stunningly beautiful Colorado mountains. All three weeks were so incredible, and I could literally go on and on about some super fun and super crazy insane stories-all varying from golden eyeballs to peeing in the woods to crazy works of the Lord.. But I'll just share one story!

During sigma, the camp in Colorado, we did our thing climbing mountains and chilling with kids in Denver, and then traveled home the second week on a thursday back to the camp in East Texas where our parents would pick us up on Saturday. We arrived to the East Texas camp (in Van) at around 8 AM on Friday morning, and were able to spend the day doing activities around camp-swimming, blobbing, sports, etc... Later that night the sigmas were able to go to a night of worship, and afterwords we went and sat outside and listened to one of our counselors talk. She stressed the importance of really talking time to process everything God had done the past two weeks, and talked about how to face the fear of going home. And then she asked us to just invite the Lord to speak to us.
I got a little sassy in my head when she said that...All throughout sigma I had been praying to just simply hear the voice of the Lord, and those two weeks I had not heard a thing-no audible voice, and that's what I wanted. A summer ago I went through a season where I heard-audibly heard God's voice, and for some reason I felt entitled to hearing His voice again-as if His presence wasn't enough. So I was doubtful, skeptical that I would hear anything.

Cool how God isn't dependent on our faith in Him, huh?
So I decided to pray-I simply asked the Lord-
Lord, what will my life look like when I get home? What do you WANT my life to look like?
I waited, I tried to be still. But I heard nothing. And all the sudden, a small, small portion of  lyrics from the song 'Live Like That' by the sidewalk prophets came to mind-
"recklessly abandoned, never holding back."
Want to know what's sad? I almost missed it! Like I said, I'm a singer. I'm in choir. It's not rare for me to get a song stuck in my head. But here's the crazy thing. I didn't even know any part of the song EXCEPT the chorus. At the time, I couldn't have told you how the song started...And usually when I get a song stuck in my head, it's because someone else was singing it before.
Nobody had sung that song the whole trip-not from what I'd heard.
God had spoken-just not through the way I had expected.
So that's how I want to live my life this year. That's why I named the blog what I did. Guys, God calls us to surrender all control to Him-and it's not because he wants us to feel enslaved, it is so we can pursue righteousness.  When we are in control, we fall. But when He holds all things, when we are truly abandoned, I think that's when we find the most freedom!
God is Good, guys. Please don't forget it!